summersongg (summersongg) wrote,

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attempting to soak up the last dregs of summer

Goodness, it's been a while since I've had the chance to just...type on the computer like this. It's probably due to a coupling of my extreme procrastination problems and my need to write without interruptions (moments that come far too rarely for me.)

Life...has been good. I spent the better part of this year questioning whether I could be considered a writer at all. The effects of fanfiction's negative connotations, perhaps. And there's that dreadful self-confidence issue I've been working on too. It's been hard, convincing myself that I've at least improved a bit over time.

This year...I went and really looked at myself. It's been a year of contemplation, personal goals, relieving pressure from others and the like. I'm glad that I had the chance to take a break from the writing and ranting and all, but I never realized how much I actually missed it until I'm actually doing it. Right now.

I do have my moments though. Sometimes, maybe after seeing a picture, a phrase, or a story, I get this inspiration in my head, a sentence to use in a fanfic about so-and-so. I'm in the writing buzz, and there's no chance to actually act on it until it's too late. Life just happens to get in the way. :)

But so many lost ideas! It's a shame, really.


On my "fanfiction" email account, I keep a draft of an email and never send it to myself. It's full of quotes, phrases, things that I used to jot down to save for later. To write about. I think it's about time to open that up and take a look.

I've missed this. Really, I do.

I'm going to try and make the most of the rest of the summer, before the dreaded semester starts again. Hopefully, Life won't interfere as much anymore.
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